The Journal of FreeDragon

 The new moon on Wednesday was big. I made plans. I didn't get to everything on my list.  There's always some big astrological event. Planets align. The moon is in a good sign while squaring something.  A lot of people think if they just make an attempt on the right day, everything will work out. They just show up, magically their life changes for the better. It doesn't quite work like that. I decided to make a change. I started on Wednesday. I had a very long to do list. Somewhere along the line, I had fear. I believe you have emotions for a reason. I don't think emotions are something to overcome, or that you can't allow them to affect you. Instead of pushing through in spite of my fear, I decided to feel. After a few moments of admitting I had fear, I realized I wasn't afraid of what I wanted to do. I was feeling rushed. Being rushed created stress. What I was really afraid of wasn't the new thing; it was the worry that the new wouldn't be any better ...

  It's a waning crescent in Aries. I have started journaling. I feel compelled to get rid of things so that the path will be clear for new opportunities when the moon is new. I have been getting frustrated with all the messes in my house. This morning I started cleaning as soon as I got up. I had to. The puppy messed in his kennel, which then ran onto the floor. I had to wash dishes so the sink was clear for me to fill the coffee pot. I had to clear trash off the porch so I could get to the barrel to fill dog food bowls. And on and on it goes. Dragons are everywhere. That's comforting. I appreciate their energy and support. We got rid of all the puppies. And then my neighbor decided he wanted both kittens to hunt mice. So I have my bathroom back, and I don't have to pick up towels anymore. We are also back to one litter box and one food bowl. That makes life easier.  I want my studio. My husband has a shop now. He has had a shop for a while. It's taking forever to get a...

 The moon is 100 percent full as I write this. I feel strangely calm; full moons normally give me a restless energy.  Let's talk about what's going on: 1. People in L.A. are peacefully protesting. This is nothing like the Rodney King riots. The military is going in. The United States government neither supports nor protects it's own citizens.  2. Snake season is upon us. This is a timber rattlesnake. I shot it with a .410 shotgun. If you zoom in on the photo, you will see half its head is missing. 3. The pool. My husband got a 20' pool. It's the largest above ground pool they make. He believes I can swim in it. I don't like the smaller pools because about the time I reach out my arm to make the second lap, I am at the edge. We shall see. The pool is going in the circle. We found the snake when we started cleaning the pool area. We have found several rattlesnakes in this area. Putting the pool near a snake den is a very bad idea. But it is the second most level p...

 It's a good day to clean and organize, but don't plant anything. This sign is barren.  No pictures today. I am rapidly running out of energy. I don't feel like doing anything extra.  The tent people got out of my yard, but they didn't really go anywhere. They just moved their car over to my in-laws' yard. And then apparently, they were just going to leave whatever they didn't want here. I pitched a fit about their dogs this morning. My in-laws have a fenced in area where their above ground pool used to be. The dogs were placed inside. There is no shelter- no dog house, tarp, sheet of plywood over saw horses...nothing. I also do not think there's water or dog food.  I cleaned out my pen, which is why I am running out of energy. I did way too much. I raked up piles of dog shit, then carried the bucket deep in the woods to dump out the disgusting contents. I found a large rock to fill in the hole his bored border collie dug. I made sure everything was clean, a...