The Journal of FreeDragon

  Today is a bit different. I started off with my journal and Oracle cards. I asked a lot of questions. I ended up with a new project- new spell, new art, new thing to make and sell. Then I looked at my planner and started thinking I should get ready for Imbolc. I intend to leave a cloth outside for the goddess to bless. I am trying to figure out the best place to put it, or if I should leave paper rather than cloth. Then I started thinking about how to use materials for spells. I think I might leave the items to be blessed on the grill, since She works with fire, and I want my work to be blessed. I will leave an offering by the pond, since Her waters are healing.  I feel better today than I did yesterday. I decided not to take Zoloft again. I would rather feel stress than to feel like vomiting all day. I sort of felt drunk, but not a happy drunk. It was the drunk just before the hangover hits, when you absolutely KNOW vomiting is in the future. Because the Internet told me al...

 Everything is irritating today. I started new meds which are supposed to reduce stress, and irritation is a side effect. Or maybe the world sucks. I can't tell.  A lot of trumpers are blaming democrats. The democrats seem to have lousy memes, so I don't think any of the points are getting through. I don't really think people reason stuff out anymore. They just click on pretty pictures. I have watched dozen videos of the shootings, most of which have been enhanced, which makes me question what was edited out. Why hasn't the National Guard come in? What is Waltz waiting on? Are there other issues in play that we no nothing about? I haven't heard anything about LA in a while. Are they still protesting?  I just tried to look at the BBC's website, so see if I could learn actual news about what's going on in my country, but they wanted me to subscribe before I could read the article, so now I know why I never hear any news. I presume everyone in my social circle ...

  Maybe it's because of my college student days, when I knew I would remember test material if I wrote it down. Or maybe it's from the crappy job I had where I had to document every motherfucking thing that happened to keep from getting thrown under the bus, but wherever it stems from, I make notes. I journal. I draw. I make lists in my phone. I read over these things. Sometimes I have an idea and multiple problems get solved. I really want a nice record of Tarot card readings. Right off the bat, this is tricky because I have a bunch of decks. I have Tarot, Oracle, playing cards, and runes. None of these have the same number of cards. Not all the cards have the same meaning. In fact, if I get stuck on interpretation, I will get a second deck, find the cards from my reading and see how the different cards compare. Some times, things aren't as bad as I thought. I just needed a different point of view.  I decided to start keeping records in my journal. I would prefer a nice ch...

  This is my father's greenhouse. I can't deal with my mother for very long, so yesterday I worked out here. I cleared this section of vines, threw the rotting board on the burn pile, and placed my plastic trays on the rails. I can't do the next section because the tree is in the way. I will need a chainsaw. Today I am going to work on clearing the floor. Then I will take a deep breath, steady my nerves, and go throw out rotting food. I will empty the trash and go home.  I like the greenhouse. I used to do spells out here, when I lived at home and could not practice freely. This was an ideal place to burn things because I could dump the spell remains down a cinder block and pour water water over it to eliminate fire hazards. No one ever suspected anything. I've tried having altars in the greenhouse, but they are a lot of work to maintain because weeds take over quickly. Altars in the greenhouse are living, grumpy beasts. They do their own thing, like encourage birds to ...

 On my birthday, my husband forced me to deal with my mother. So I bagged up 4 trash bags of rotten food. I tried to wash dishes, but I think the sink is clogged. It became overwhelming fast. I haven't gone back over. Yesterday, I decided to work in the vineyard. I went in the house to check on my mother. This is her kitchen: From the backdoor. The stove. The trash I emptied 12 days before. This means she did not take her trash can down to the road last week. I had this counter completely empty. Most of the sandwiches are barely eaten. A few nibbles. That's it. Another view of the stove. The dinning room table.  I talked to my mother when I arrived, and again before I left. She seemed much more rational when I left. I think I am her point of reference. When she sees me, she gets back to reality. I am debating how many times I should go back. I could work in the greenhouse today, but the more my mother sees me, the more likely is to become verbally abusive.  Blessed be, my...

 I am back at the same doctor's office. On the way I realized I hadn't seen a pink Cadillac. Then I looked up and saw a pink Jeep.

  This is my library desk. I started journaling, then I drew a rune to see what kind of energy would be in my day. I really wanted to put the rune on my Lemon8 account because that's where I generally put pictures of Tarot cards. And I can't do that anymore because someone I know in real life found my account and started following me.  He follows me on other social media. I don't post the same stuff on all the sites. Facebook is how I connect to people I know, I remember birthdays and celebrate positive news. Pinterest is more for finding art, crafts, and sewing patterns or quilt ideas. Tiktok is my news source. I find out more there in a few minutes than in a lifetime of study. A lot of things are mentioned that I will then Google and be amazed that more people aren't talking about it. I also see a ton of spells where witches do some really good ideas that I never thought of, like charming my name for prosperity. I don't fool with Instagram anymore because it's...

 I am struggling today. I decided to stop struggling and have the day I want. First, turn on the beautiful lamp because it makes me happy. Next, journaling. It has been 11 days since I last made an entry. I need to write daily or all the thoughts pile up, along with the feelings, and then I don't know what's going on. I absolutely hate blogger. I was writing the post on my phone and at this point, everything froze up. I couldn't get to the toolbar to add pictures. I couldn't scroll all the way down to write more. But I am a practical witch, so I came in the living room where the desktop computer is. Fuck the asshole technology. I'll go old school and defeat you. Next, I got out my cards. I am reading with Alchemy 1977 because I am in a dark mood. I think this is accurate. I am going to present as something else using what I have on hand. I'll be majick even if I don't feel it. Yesterday, I got these angel candleholders at the thrift store. I think I will fin...

 I don't have a picture. I've done several of these spells and I don't feel that any of them have ever worked. But it is really hard to get a sign in regard to emotions. You can't make anyone feel anything. And even if you got them to feel something, if the feeling is uncomfortable, they will bury it deep. A mirror box is simply a box lined with mirrors, or there's two mirrors reflecting each other. It creates a portal. Mirror boxes are meant to make a victim be alone with their thoughts or feelings. Sometimes that's two different things.  The idea is that the person will feel shame or guilt, and then change their ways. That's a nice thought. wouldn't it be great if the person who had wronged you, admitted they were wrong and then apologized? That would make you feel better wouldn't it?  Except most people do not believe they have done anything wrong. Rarely do people apologize. Sometimes instead of facing things, the person gets drunk or high, or th...

 Good morning, my dears. Today is rough. I am struggling. I think first on my list should be to cleanse my dream catcher because all night I dreamed of my sister-in-law causing problems. First, she wanted me to take in her pet snake, which I refused. Then she was trying to take advantage of a girl with no hands. She kept trying to sell the girl's prosthetic hands to a software company. My sister-in-law is always plotting something, so the dreams aren't a surprise, but it is exhausting. Goddamn, don't you have anything else to do? She is probably the reason why one of my wards took a hit.  I figured out how to do the mirrors for my latest art project. Bonus, I will be using mirrors I thought wouldn't work with anything else. Yay! I am struggling today with leg cramps. I think I have long Covid. The cramps and shortness of breath have been a problem all week. Yesterday I wanted to explore the creeks of Homestead, but I thought I would be too winded to walk very far. All I...

  The January full moon is now. Some people call this the wolf moon because it is the coldest month of winter and the wolves hunt fiercely. I call it the quiet moon because most people have turned inward and are focused on their thoughts. This is AI art that I made. I try to make art for every full moon. It is sometimes tricky to get good AI art. My prompt gave me a beautiful red wolf, but sadly, that wolf only had three legs.  I have some problems with AI art. It rarely makes sense. AI is VERY BAD for the earth. We tend to think of one computer churning out images, but actually, it's hundreds of computers all working at once to produce the image. Think data centers in Memphis, TN that smell bad, using thousands of watts of electricity that put further stress on the power grid. While I encourage everyone to make art by hand with pencils, paint, ink, or fabric, I understand that AI is the latest movement and it will not improve until people make it better. There used to be an a...

  This morning I saw a Witch on tiktok saying that spinning brought chaos to order. She had a wooden lazy Susan with crystals and a candle.  I have done spinning spells in the past, using a fidget spinner and rare earth magnets. It made a definite energy shift. The only thing I currently have in the house that spins is the record player. I did a spell to promote my art. Since my current art project is too big for the record player, I took a screenshot of my social media, then put my phone on the turntable. I have other ideas, so look for future posts. It's the first day of 2026. My sugar has been good; that's encouraging. I have been trying to exercise more. I decided to base my exercise on the moon. Today the moon is Gemini, so I worked my arms.  I feel hopeful about this year. I don't have a resolution, just a desire to make life easier/better. We will see how it goes.  Blessed be, my dears. May your year be bright. Stay safe and well.