The Journal of FreeDragon

 I mentioned that I am going to physical therapy. I'm at the point now where I no longer feel like vomiting when I leave. I feel a bit drained, but okay. After the last three or so appointments, I've felt well enough to go to the thrift store or the library. When I first started, I would go home and lay still for the rest of the day. I have taken to noticing the other patients. I notice they seem to feel better. Years ago, I worked for a chiropractor. It was before I got married. Will was going to a chiropractor near his job, and one day he asked Will what he was doing differently because he wasn't nearly as tight. Will proudly boosted that fiancee had magic hands. And that's the story of how I got a job as a massage therapist.  It was not something I ever thought I would want to do. I don't like people. I don't like strangers touching me. However, I worked with one patient at a time, and I am fine with one on one. I could see patients come in the office obvious...

  This morning, in honor of the super moon, I did a spell to release the things I don't like about my life. Then I started thinking about what I do like. Then I realized that I don't want a radically different life; I just want to tweak a few things. And I remembered the coloring book. I started a quilter's coloring book a very long time ago. I'm not sure what year, but I'm pretty sure at that time, I was living in my ratty, single-wide trailer in the county seat. It has been on my mind for a while, that I should do something with that project. So this morning I found my designs; I started working on this again in July of 2023. I got out out one design. I made copies to color. Possibly, I designed some fabric around this one block. And then...? I'm not sure. Maybe I got busy with other things. Maybe I couldn't be in the studio while leaving my teenagers unattended in the house because they were vaping. Maybe my husband said it was a dumb idea and I got disco...

  I found these stars at the thrift store. I just wanted the big one, but my daughter informed me that pointy stars are cool. There was a 3rd one, but all had the same price and I wasn't willing to pay $3.50 for stars that were half the size of the one I wanted. So I brought these two to the register, and the cashier rang them up as $3.50 for the whole set. I probably should have gotten all 3. But anyway. This is a spell I made last year for good health. It's a Feng Shui thing- hanging a prism in the center of the home. Things worked well for a while. Then Youngest Son ran away. And I got a new phone which didn't have my handy alarm clock app, so stressed out and lacking tools, I usually forgot to take insulin. My a1c went way up. Headaches increased. I stopped sleeping. I'm thinking of combining the two; add the prisms to the star. Maybe change the spell a bit, maybe have a protective home so that I am free to focus on my health.  The star is all I am currently working...

 I went to the doctor yesterday as a follow-up for pain. I had x-rays done, which was an ordeal because the x-ray machine kept malfunctioning. I rescheduled about 4 times between two different locations before I finally got them done. They did not send any pictures to my doctor. The tech wrote a paragraph about what she thought was wrong with me. I asked for copies to give to my attorney. My doctor got all offended because this office does not like to be involved in litigation.  During the last visit, I must have said a dozen times that I was in a car wreck. Still having pain from the car wreck I was in. My lawyer wants me to go to an orthopedic surgeon. I have pain every day. We are getting ready to go to court. That wreck fucked me up.  Like, how did she not know I had been in a car accident?! Is it common for people to request x-rays just to do them?! Doctor also forgot that she had sent me to physical therapy. At the follow-up visit to determine if therapy was making ...

 1. Today is my ten year anniversary. We renewed our vows in front of the courthouse where we got married. 2. I started physical therapy. I hate it. When I leave, I hurt so much I feel like vomiting. But the next day I feel better, and I have more energy, so maybe it's working? 3. DeviantArt is going great for me. I am making more art. I am trying new things. Still haven't sold anything, but I feel like if I applied that energy to my shop, I would definitely have regular sales. I think this weekend I will make a plan for running my shop. 4. I stopped thinking of food as a problem. Now I ask, how does this benefit me? I try to pick out the most beneficial choice. I'm not as hungry, and I don't feel deprived.  5. Youngest Son ran away on Sept. 6. Last night, I discovered Middle Son is involved in drug deals. This may be why Youngest Son ran away. A lot of people have lied to us. Someone sent us photoshopped images of him on a beach. By sheer chance, I found the original p...

 I tried adding a picture to the top of my blog. Obviously, it didn't happen. I have some other ideas. I don't think Blogger does. Blogger is probably not comfortable with me having ideas. Sigh. I didn't miss this part. While I wasn't blogging, I started spending more time on DeviantArt. I post art nearly every day. I have several watchers. I get some favorites. Occasionally, I even get a comment or two.  I am doing a lot of AI art. I see this as art exercises. It also helps me refine what prompts I put in and how I word things. The way I see things is NOT how others view the world. Because I must carefully word phrases, I am getting better at writing stories to sell my art on Etsy.  My shop still isn't up to par. It is better. If I logged in daily, I might start making regular sales. Etsy isn't tech savvy either; I struggled with my banner. I never could get the size right. Things would look great on my desktop monitor and be wildly distorted once uploaded. I f...

 Hello, my dears. I have decided to blog again. A few months ago, I deleted my old blog. I was in a car accident three years ago. Now, finally, we are headed to court. I don't have a problem with that. What I had a problem with was the opposing lawyers wanting all my social media. I realize they were looking for every time I mentioned the accident, so they could find some little clue indicating that I wasn't badly injured. It really pissed me off. I believe social media should be private. I understand it is not, but I don't think I should be judged for stating my opinion. I never put social media on job applications. I give my email and that's it. Facebook shouldn't have any sway on me being qualified for a job. That is nothing but discrimination. I also refuse to list hobbies or interests. Don't worry about what I do when I am off the clock  I started deleting posts, then I realized my lifestyle and political views might costs me the case. So I deleted the whol...