Life Updates

 1. Today is my ten year anniversary. We renewed our vows in front of the courthouse where we got married.

2. I started physical therapy. I hate it. When I leave, I hurt so much I feel like vomiting. But the next day I feel better, and I have more energy, so maybe it's working?

3. DeviantArt is going great for me. I am making more art. I am trying new things. Still haven't sold anything, but I feel like if I applied that energy to my shop, I would definitely have regular sales. I think this weekend I will make a plan for running my shop.

4. I stopped thinking of food as a problem. Now I ask, how does this benefit me? I try to pick out the most beneficial choice. I'm not as hungry, and I don't feel deprived. 

5. Youngest Son ran away on Sept. 6. Last night, I discovered Middle Son is involved in drug deals. This may be why Youngest Son ran away. A lot of people have lied to us. Someone sent us photoshopped images of him on a beach. By sheer chance, I found the original photos on Instagram. He was never there. Several people have seen him. He's running with a bunch of potheads, and I fear he has also gotten deep into the drug scene. I think something horrible is looming ahead and I cannot do anything about it.

6. I stopped trying to have anything to do with my narcissist mother. She has not noticed that I am not coming around. Occasionally, she comes here. I just wait for her to stop talking and leave. I do not try to tell her anything. She doesn't know Youngest Son is missing. I do not ask for anything, nor do I offer to help. I do not tell her my plans. She tells me everything is great, then she goes about her business. I am much happier than I have been in years. 

7. The garden looks awful. First, I wasn't trying to do anything because Youngest Son left and he was my muscle, moving whatever is too heavy for me. Then every spare moment was spent trying to track down leads. Then I started physical therapy two days a week. Then we had a hurricane. Then the chickens ate all the leaves off my broccoli and I became absolutely disgusted. I felt like pulling every plant out of the ground. I repotted my ginger. I started planning for winter. I decided to make more chutney. But going out daily hasn't happened since the end of August. 

8. I did make another bottle tree. Youngest Son helped me on Labor Day. 

9. My husband got a raise. A good one. Money is less of a problem. 

10. My dyslexic daughter is finally reading. 

11. I picked out my Halloween costume. I am going to be a dragon. 

12. I talk to House. I have a good relationship with our household spirits. I have decided to apply this to Studio, because she is a smaller version of House. 

Blessed be, my dears.    

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