Rabbit, Rabbit

 Today is a new month, so be sure to say, 'rabbit, rabbit' for luck. The moon is new and in Sagittarius, which is a generally cheerful sign. Refresh your money bowls and enjoy yourself. 

We found out more about Youngest Son running away. I thought he just left, but actually, he planned everything carefully. He told lots of friends, because not a soul called him on the day he left; they all knew he left his phone behind. He planned, or at least thought about, what would happen if he got caught. He took screenshots of local juvenile group homes and sent those to his friends, presumably so they could find him later. And he did the same with jails. We also discovered that he has been on drugs much longer than we thought. This is why he left. He only cared about getting high. 

I am still really angry about this. He threw away every single thing he had going for him. He would have graduated high school. He could have played football, or joined the military. He probably could have gotten a music scholarship and had a free college education. All he had to do was wait 8 more months. But, no. He had to get high. Now he has nothing. 

I still tend to zone out a lot. My thoughts are circular. Eventually, I can't stand thinking the same things over and over, so I scroll tiktok as a distraction. Laying in bed as I lose track of time makes me feel worthless, so when I start feeling guilty, I read. I just finished Outlander which I loved. My goal is to read the series in order, but I haven't checked to see if my library has all the books. I will be sorely disappointed if they do not. 

I started signing into Etsy again. I found a way to bring more traffic to my shop, but I haven't sold anything yet. I thought I had stumbled onto the answer. I will keep plugging away, and eventually, something will happen. 

Thanksgiving went well. I only saw one of my in-laws. He described the low country boil as 'different' and said the pasta was overcooked. I am taking this to mean my husband's sister still isn't a good cook. Maybe we got lucky being snubbed. I spent all day cooking the turkey. It was delicious. The ham was even better. I made the best stuffing of my life, which shocked me because I only cook stuffing maybe twice a year. 

Last night, I met my grandson. He is a beautiful, golden boy. He is the same age as my youngest granddaughter. She is the dark to his light, but they are both very alike in temperament. I think they would play well together. 

I cleaned up my bookcases and turned them into an altar of sorts, with bits of magick tucked here and there. I like the arrangement. 

I bought a new notebook for my next journal. This one is a graph paper notebook because I intend to do more art. I need to draw each day. I will still write, I will just start my entries with little geometric sketches and small Celtic knots. I am very excited about this. I feel like I am starting a new chapter. 

I had other things on my mind, but they are dark and worrisome things, so I don't think I want to write about them. I'll just stop here and wish you well. Blessed be. Merry meet and merry part. Stay safe and well, my dears.