Last Quarter

 Today is the moon is 60% in Scorpio, which is a wonderful sign for making things bear fruit. Now, of course, when the moon shrinks, we let go. Is there some small thing holding you back, stopping you? Some minor detail tripping you up, or preventing you from reaching your goal? Today is the day to overcome it. I am going to do a road opener spell. I have a few blocks that I have not dealt with because life has been overwhelming as of late. 

I think a long term friendship has ended. It ended a while ago, but I kept trying to rekindle the connection. Yesterday, she told me she was 'stepping back' because hearing about my problems was 'too stressful.' Well, fuck. Imagine how stressful it is to live with those problems. I asked what she was stepping back from, as she wasn't present in my life. She said she just had to say something; she couldn't be silent about how bad things are. 

Except, she didn't say anything, other than this situation was stressing her. She didn't offer to meet me anywhere or do anything with me to get my mind off of things. She didn't offer to help, or give me some resources to try. I never see her. I only communicate via email, which half the time she ignores. I rarely know what's going on in her life, so I am sort of grasping at straws when I ask how things are going. I put a lot into the relationship, but it's all one sided. I don't get anything in return. I decided to let her go.

Yesterday, I had two doctor appointments. I was barely home. I struggled with cleaning. I need to clean my kitchen altar. I have changed some of my spellwork, which seems to be going well. I overcame a major block recently, now my life is much easier. My rashes are clearing up. I am sleeping better. I found a tennis racket. I have been wanting to play tennis for exercise. I really wanted to play today, but it is rainy and cold in my part of the world. I doubt I will be outside much.

I was able to get the medication I need; my doctor gave me samples. I decided to keep asking for samples instead of battling the insurance company. My husband is starting a new job, so the insurance will probably change anyway. The new policy might cover my medication. I don't know yet. 

The job change was really stressful. My husband was first put on admin leave, then he was fired. I did not think he would get fired. I believe that was a trial run because they want to get rid of someone higher up, and they wanted to see how much they could get away with. But the new job seems much better, so maybe this all worked out for the best. 

I have been working on several art projects, just not every day. I am not posting pictures because last week my computer died. While the dog was chasing the cat, they bumped the power strip, which turned off my computer. I couldn't get it to boot up again. I thought the switch was bad, but it's my hard drive. I have been given a new tower, with my old hard drive in it, thus I still have the same problem of not being able to restart the computer if the power goes out. I now have a newer version of Windows. I can't find anything. Downloads do not work the same way and now go to some mysterious folder with downloads from years ago, but not everything that I have downloaded. Getting to my scanner now involves several steps that I do not remember unless I can figure out how to access the printer and I have everything right in front of me. Last night I bumbled around for twenty minutes unsuccessfully, before I gave up and went to bed. Change is confusing.  

I have been preparing for the craft fair in April. I have three quilts to take. Recently, I figured out a good way to store my wares. I have started compiling things and making inventory lists. I am very excited. I am going to wear my dragon mask. I don't think anyone will remember the name of my shop, but they will remember the dragon lady. 

That's all for now. I would like to make some blog changes, but I haven't had time yet. Pieces are still falling into place. Blessed be, my dears. Stay safe and well.