Thursday

 Good morning, my dears. I have been journaling. Yesterday I talked about a friendship that really ended a long time ago, but I never really let go. I thought about it more and realized I may have been bespelled. I think she put my name in the freezer, thus inadvertently binding me to her. Which explains why I couldn't move on and why I kept reaching out even though it was obvious things had ended. 

I took steps to break the spell. I feel better, more free. My thoughts seem clearer. During my journaling session, it was easier to figure out what I want and what steps I should take to reach my goals. I do not think I have cut all the ties, but I am breaking free.

I also feel inspired to clean my home and studio. I suddenly have a lot of ideas to make things better. I found old notes, a whole list of ideas for art, and I don't know why I never did any of them. Well, now I know- I was blinded to living my life. 

I don't think she did this out of malice, exactly. I mean, putting my name in the freezer was wrong because if she was really my friend she could have talked to me about whatever was bothering her. If she was jealous, we could have figured out how to get her what she wanted. Her freezer spell was destructive because it did not allow me to learn or grow. It gradually wore me down. 

I have decided to reverse the spell by making the ice work for me- water expands when frozen, which is growth. Ice can break the container it is in. I am going to to make that bottle with my name break, then thaw out. If that ruins her kitchen, oh well. Learn from what you did. 

Blessed be. Stay safe.