Covid Strikes in the Last Quarter

 I have gotten a part-time job. Once a week, I do inventory at my husband's work. Friday, I worked in a different part of the hanger where it is extremely dusty. The big doors were wide open and directly across the fence is a large patch of unmown lawn with ragweed. The other major difference about Friday was one flight student and his instructor came in to look at an airplane engine. Most days, we barely see another person. Typically, my husband goes to the office to pick up parts, work orders, and messages. Lots of people walk by the hanger, but it's rare for anyone to come in.

Friday evening, my sinuses seemed to be draining. My throat felt weird. I thought the dust had gotten to me, though it seems like something would have happened at work, rather than after I left. 

Saturday I did not get out of bed. I sneezed and coughed. I couldn't decided if I was too cold or too hot. I probably had a fever. Absolutely nothing helped to relieve symptoms. I ached all over. 

Saturday night, I dreamed of an ex-boyfriend. In the dream, he kept trying to give me a business card with a code.

Sunday, my voice was raspy. I had a headache. I was mostly cold. The aching stopped. 

Sunday night, I dreamed of my ex again. In this dream, I was in an unfamiliar place. He would be nearby, but then leave. As I didn't know anyone else and nothing about the place made sense, I continued searching for him. I would find him, he would be relieved to see me, and then he would disappear again.

Monday morning I didn't feel much better. I slept a lot. If I moved around too much, I got lightheaded. 

Monday was also the day my daughter-in-law got angry with my ten year old daughter for not washing dishes. Dishes are a huge issue in my house. Nobody does them. I will start washing dishes. I will gather all the dirty plates and put them in the sink. Then I will wipe down counters. Then I will wash whatever I have the most of. I usually get tired before I finish. I will come back later and find the dirty dishes have multipled. Then I am annoyed because there are four adults in this house capable of washing a goddamn plate. 

So dishes are always piled on the counter. Apparently my son's wife thought my child should be the main dish washer. They got into an argument. My daughter said she forgot to put up dishes that morning. Somehow, that got twisted into 'you're not my mom and you can't tell me what to do.' Both son and his wife stormed off for dinner. 

Sunday morning, my husband washed dishes because he couldn't find a clean bowl to eat breakfast. There was a lot of cussing. I assume Monday's fight was a reaction to Sunday's rage.

Monday night, I had the most vivid dream about my ex. This time we were being chased. I woke up several times, coughing. After the coughing fit, I would fall asleep and immediately be back in the same dream. That is very unusual. 

Now it's Tuesday. I walked the dogs this morning, but it made me too hot and my stomach churned. I locked the door, then went to bed. I think my mother may have come here, but no one went to the door. I had a dream about my daughter-in-law babysitting three spoiled girls. They screamed a lot. 

I realize I have several problems going on at once. IDK what's going on with my ex. I feel like he is trying to re-enter my life. I don't want that. 

I probably have Covid, not seasonal allergies. There's nothing to do but ride it out.

My adult son needs to move. 

I have the same problem with my narcissistic mother that I've always had and I still don't know what to do because she doesn't pay any attention to anyone else on this earth. 

I feel like an uncrossing ritual would be best. Possibly, there more happening that I am unaware of. I posted on Facebook that I decided to be a devil for Halloween, which drew the attention of a Xian nut job wishing I would see that God already made me beautiful so I just need to love myself. I do not know this person. I do not know why she felt compelled to comment on something that had nothing to do with her. There is no telling how much negativity she pushed in my direction.

I will report back when either I have answers, or I know something worked. Blessed be.