My dears, I do not feel well. It's the weekend and all my neighbors are smoking weed, which I am allergic to. I've had at least two allergic reactions in the last 12 hours. I've also had several low sugars. I can't really tell which symptoms belong to which auto-immune illness. I may ramble a bit. Also, A LOT has happened, most of which probably had to do with the recent full moon.
First, most important and most exciting, I got to fly an airplane! I am amazed by how beautiful everything looks from the sky. I think I appreciate the Earth more now that I have been above it.
Flying the plane made me so happy. When I landed, I felt like I could do anything. I went to check on my mother and she couldn't even make me mad. I simply did not care what she said. It doesn't matter.
I did not drink anything that night. I just did not need or want alcohol. I didn't see how whiskey could improve my mood because I was already at the top of my game. I did have a drink later on Saturday, but not nearly as much as I usually drink.
Many years ago, I bought a necklace in Panama City. It was a macrame necklace. Over the years, the knots lost some of their twist, but only on one side. I decided to remake the cord, but it was micro-macrame, so that became a lot of work. I bought a black velvet cord. I wear this whenever I need light, or to remember my own power. After the flight, the clasp got tangled in my hair. I couldn't unhook it, so I pulled hard, thinking that I might lose some hair, but I'd still have my necklace. Instead, I pulled the cord apart. I could have fixed it, but I think the necklace breaking signifies an ending to my old way of life. I've decided to hang this on my bottle tree. I use the bottle trees for all kinds of majick.
I had a huge fight my with mother two days before I flew the plane. She threatened to kill me because I won't let her drive anymore. I told her that her mother would be ashamed of the way she is acting.
It took a few days, but my mother has changed. She stopped roaming the neighborhood. She is trying really hard to be nice. She says less negative things. I wish I had said Granny would be ashamed 15 years ago. My life would have been much better.
While I was at the airport, I asked Youngest Son to sit with my mother because obviously, I can't rush back to Homestead while I am in the air. He didn't want to stay because Mom has hit him. I really felt frustrated. No one likes her. I thought I would be stuck doing this alone forever.
But I found a caregiver. I haven't met her in person yet, just talked to her on the phone, but she seems nice. Maybe this will resolve some stress.
I cleaned my library. I don't know when I will get to read. I don't really have down time anymore, because I spend spare moments studying federal flight regulations.
I have managed to make some art. I took the owner's manual out of my dad's truck and started drawing cows on the pages. I grew up on a beef cattle farm. I was supposed to inherit the truck when he died eleven years ago, but my mother wouldn't let me have it because she is spiteful. Since she wrecked the truck, I decided she shouldn't have it either.
I haven't sewn anything. The craft fair draws nigh and I am so not ready.
My in-laws are thinking of moving four hours away. This solves a lot of problems and would take a great deal of stress off my husband, so I am all for it.
I am struggling to get my house clean. I already took care of the library, but I need to clean out kitchen cabinets, and then I need to clean my studio. That I never get to work in.
We still haven't filed our taxes. Somehow, we also need to renew car tags.
I have managed some spells. I put a couple online, so the Internet could add energy.
I make it a point to go to my garden daily.
Journaling is hit or miss.
I have started studying weather again. Years ago, I began studying weather so I could be better at gardening. I didn't get very far because several types of clouds often appear together. Rarely will only one kind of cloud be in the sky. Weather is a huge deal in aviation, so I started reading my weather guide again, before I move on to aviation weather manuals. I find it a little easier to identify clouds when I am in the sky with them because I can see how they are changing.
I probably haven't cover everything, but I am tired of writing. Blessed be, my dears. Stay safe and well.
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