The Journal of FreeDragon

 On Saturday, December 28th, we found Youngest Son. It was pure chance. Someone came to our house to buy car parts. My husband started telling the story. Then the person realized they had heard this story before.  We got the address where he was staying. He was going by a different name. We called the police. CPD has balls. They just went in the house and got him.  We had to go pick him up from the police station. Youngest Son was sitting in the police car shaking like a leaf. I got my daughter to convince him to get out of the car and come home with us.  He is still clinging to lies. There's lots of gaps and conflicting details in his stories. Some of it is he doesn't want to tell us, and some of it, I think, is he did so many drugs that he's no longer sure of reality.  He had been smoking weed right before he was picked up. He smelled horrible, so my husband made him shower as soon as he got home. However, his clothes were in the house. I have a THC allergy. I...

Yesterday, I planned to take down the tree. After that, I wanted to move furniture. Middle Son wasn't home. But some of my grandkids were. I thought Z was off work. Around 10 in the morning, the kids were driving remote control cars into my furniture and pounding on the piano. I told Z I had a headache, come get his children. And that's when I found out he was at work; I would have the kids until after 5.  I wanted to cry.  Nothing got moved or packed up.  Middle Son came home around dark. Sometime while he was at his friend's house, he decided to travel with his grandparents to his aunt's house, where he will stay for a week. That works out better, because now I can deep clean and remove the vape residue. Already, my rashes are dying down. I hope they go away. I really hope Middle Son decides to live with his aunt or his grandparents. That way my rashes don't come back.  I have made a few changes to my art. I am journaling about my art so that I stay focused. And I...

 I didn't finish packing up Youngest Son's clothes yesterday. Still shirts left. Also socks, underwear, and shorts, but those aren't in the closet. I thought both these totes were the same, but the top one is bigger. The bottom tote is jeans and the top is all shirts. I started wondering if I should re-pack these, but then I decided all the clothes still wouldn't fit, so never mind.  Blessed be, my dears. Stay safe and warm.

 Second Oldest Son has just announced that he, his wife, and his children will be moving in with us again. Which I am okay with. But now I have to clean/purge. Again.  The cleaning began with the camping gear, because I needed a storage box. That was gross.  I then started taking all of Youngest Son's clothes out of the closet. Only his jeans fit in the box. This means I have to get the other storage box emptied.  I would really like for Middle Son to move next door. He's supposed to move to Ohio, but he has done absolutely nothing to prepare for this trip. Husband doesn't really want him to move. So he is also dragging his feet.  I suppose the solstice is a good a time as any to make radical life changes.  Blessed be, my dears. Stay sane. 

 On Friday the 13th, I made my spell to remove blocks. I felt pretty good. Then I got hit with ALL the damn blocks. Something came up with every single one that I am struggling with, all in the same day. The two most annoying blocks had repeat performances all weekend.  I figured out how to adjust the spell. Then I started thinking about how difficult this year's great release challenge has been. I realized it is probably my emotions making problems resurface over and over. After decided to at least acknowledge my emotions, I opened my email and saw that today's challenge is to deal with emotions. I feel validated now.  I think I will start journaling. When that becomes too much, I will clean. If that becomes too much, I will rest.  I will repeat this process for as long as it takes, even if I am still doing this work into January of 2025. Emotions do not follow schedules.  Blessed be, my dears. Do the best you can.

 The moon is more full, and it is Friday the 13th, so I decided to go ahead with some work. I put my remove blocks charm back on. Currently, I am experiencing much stress due to the fact that my aunt died. We were not close. She was not a nice person. The stress arises from my narcissist mother, who is making her sister's death all about her. My mother has come over repeatedly to ask about funeral arrangements. I don't think there will be a funeral because my aunt died in North Carolina and it is crazy expensive to ship a body across state lines. My mother doesn't want to hear this. She wants to go to the funeral so there will be some drama, then she'll have years worth of trauma to talk about.  The other stressful thing my mother is doing, is offering me pictures. And if she would just let me look at the pictures, there wouldn't be a problem. But all my cousins are taking DNA tests and everyone in my generation is coming up 23% Nigerian. My mother has a very old ph...

 A while back I decided to show you what I am working on at the full moons. Maybe give life updates during first quarter 🌛 moons. Naturally, I made this decision without acting on it. Then I saw my idea in my journal this morning, and the moon isn't full but I am trying to get my shit together.  I settled on which dragon to use on banners/bunting when I do in-person events and fairs. I was over thinking it. I drew the rune Wunjo which means happiness. The meaning on the rune flash cards says to enjoy simple things and success comes from doing what you love. I should have figured this out a long time ago. Overthinking got in the way. I decided to make a moon phase box. I have an app that tells me which sign the moon is currently in. Despite checking daily, I often forget. I think I will remember if I physically move a little moon around the Zodiac wheel. I have a wood box that I need to paint, I have magnetic sheets to put inside the box, and I have printed Zodiac graphics. Fo...

  I mentioned that I am doing the Great Release Challenge. I picked four stalled projects to complete. The first one was my book box. It took forever to finish painting the box. Then I made a sticker for the cover. This is a page from an adult coloring book. I use this page in my best possible outcome spell. I scanned the page, printed a copy, then cut out the dragon. I sized him a little too big; it just barely fit in my sticker machine. I used a gift bag for the inside. This bag's design is a grid, making it easy to cut to size.  Alright, I can't post anymore pictures because blogger has decided not to completely load the picture options. Blogger, you suck dishwater, you fucking loser. Anyway. I am storing my rune books in the dragon book box. I have started studying runes again. I'm trying to draw a rune daily, but some days I struggle with getting anything done. Like today it's raining, so my pain level is pretty high. If I take anything for pain, it will make me sl...

  It almost took an act of Congress, but I got the tree up yesterday. Then I had my 9 year old daughter decorate. Our asshole cat has been knocking ornaments off.  According to astrology, some things should end today. I hope so. I've had enough. 

 I started doing Silver Ravenwolf's Great Release Challenge. Most years, I do at least part of it. The Release is often difficult because something always happens. But that's normal when you're trying to get rid of negative energy- it tends to ooze everywhere. Yesterday, I simply had too much scheduled. I had three doctor appointments. First, I had an allergy shot at 10. I returned library books while I was out. I have a lot of animosity towards the allergist because I figured out that the vapes my sons smuggled into my house were the cause of my rashes. The allergist told me that my rash wasn't an allergic reaction, I just needed to stop rubbing whatever that irritant was on my skin. There is no evidence that anyone is allergic to vapes. They sent me to a dermatologist, who also could not figure out what was going on. Then Middle Son failed a drug screening because he had TCH in his system, then I found out TCH allergies are a thing, and hey! my cousin sent my a screen...

 Today is a new month, so be sure to say, 'rabbit, rabbit' for luck. The moon is new and in Sagittarius, which is a generally cheerful sign. Refresh your money bowls and enjoy yourself.  We found out more about Youngest Son running away. I thought he just left, but actually, he planned everything carefully. He told lots of friends, because not a soul called him on the day he left; they all knew he left his phone behind. He planned, or at least thought about, what would happen if he got caught. He took screenshots of local juvenile group homes and sent those to his friends, presumably so they could find him later. And he did the same with jails. We also discovered that he has been on drugs much longer than we thought. This is why he left. He only cared about getting high.  I am still really angry about this. He threw away every single thing he had going for him. He would have graduated high school. He could have played football, or joined the military. He probably could ha...